I found out there is a program on TV about me. It's called Hoarders. I see so much of myself in the lives of these people. The first time I saw the program I had to turn it off because it hurt my heart. I guess it was just too close to home. I saw what could happen to me if I don't get help.
I believe the Lord is using that program to guide me to a life of help and hope. Because of that hope, I can see a way out. I know it will not be easy - or fast - but with time, work and the help of the Lord I have faith that I can change.
I need help and part of that help will come from a program called "Flylady". I have started by taking Baby Steps. Today I began working on the kitchen. It took a couple hours but I can now see my sink. It isn't "shiney" but I can actually see the bottom of my kitchen sink. That does not mean my kitchen is clean. That will probably take another day or two; but it will get done.
I serve a God of new beginnings and tomorrow offers the promise of a continuation of this new beginning.
If you read my blog, please pray for me as I begin this journey.